See You the F#ck Later 2013

I'm so ready for 2014~

This time last year I made a resolution to get my health in check for 2013. The positive is I did what it took to make my health better. I had all my routine check-ups and had a hysterectomy in March. The doctor thought it would cure some of my Anemia issues, but it didn’t.

In November I had an endoscopy and a few days later the doctor called me at 9pm to discuss some issues. I’m not sure about you, but if my doctor calls my house at 9pm he’s not calling with good news. My hubby said not to worry, it if were cancer he’d call me into the office to discuss it.

Well, okay – maybe. See the doctor is concerned there’s something going on with my ulcerative colitis. And yes, he used the word cancer. See when someone battles UC for longer than 8 years there’s a higher risk of cancer. I’ve been suffering for almost 14 years. My blood levels are off and I’m severely anemic.

This means my 2013 resolution will carry over to 2014, because I am determine to get my health in check. I refuse to allow the scare of cancer hold me back. I will beat it, if that’s the issue.

Lucky for me I’ve been working two jobs for the last few months so my mind has been distracted.

In a few weeks I’ll have my answers. In the meantime I’m eating better and getting my mind healthy. I’m ready for any battle. I’ve survived a 15 yr abusive relationship and a disease that can wear you down. I’m not going to go down without a fight!

I’m also getting back to my roots. Writing. I have to do what I love and that’s telling stories or helping others with my articles.

Do you make resolutions? Do you keep them?

Oh and I have to add – Happy 7^th Anniversary to my husband. He’s my best friend and someone who shares my sick sense of humor. It’s amazing that after all the ups and downs we’ve suffered we can still make each other laugh.

Happy New Year! May 2014 be the best.

Thoughts for the Day!

Yesterday’s post was pre-scheduled so when I said I had a great weekend, it was only a half truth. We did have a wonderful Saturday. Sunday I woke with a hoarse voice, chest congestion and a pain under my left shoulder blade.

The hubby insisted I go to the doctors I argued. I relented and I’m glad I did. The doctor checked all my vitals, listened to my lungs and thought I sounded clear. But because of the pain under my shoulder blade she wanted to do an x-ray. She did and discovered I have pneumonia.

The only reason I probably didn’t have more symptoms is because I’m pumped up on steroids to control my crohns. Yes, my life is fun right now. I’m taking more meds than a drug addict. But if it avoids the big C…my doctors are afraid of me developing, well…crap, pump me up.

I never feared hearing the word Cancer as much as I have lately. My doctors have been talking more and more about it and their concern I’m susceptible to it. I’m doing EVERYTHING the doctors are telling me. I’ve changed my diet. I’m trying to avoid unnecessary stress and taking the meds faithfully.

I have my blood tested weekly because the counts are so low they worry about me needing a transfusion. With the new meds brings other concerns. They suppress my immune system so I’ve opened myself up to contracting other things too easily. Thus the reason for the pneumonia. Like I said, I’m lucky to have been on a steroid already. It probably kept the severity of it at bay.

It’s sad in some ways that it takes a scare or in my case a possibility of reality to have a person rethink the way they live.

In 2012 I faced many demons. In 2013 I’m determined to get my health back in order and be the best ME I can be. I have a positive attitude and I’ve surrounded myself with great friends and family. I’m pushing the negatives aside.

The point? Don’t wait until you get slapped in the face with a dose of reality to love life. Appreciate it for what it is…a gift!

This and That

This week has been insanely busy. My little one turns one on Saturday. Family has been in town for a few days with more coming in tomorrow. It’s been an intense year, but good in so many ways. I’m still trying to figure out how to be a full time mom, full time day job and a writer. Juggling the three doesn’t always work.

I’ve also been really sick for weeks. I suffer from Crohn’s and that has reared its ugly head. I’m getting better daily, but for many reasons, the blog has been the last thing on my mind. So if you don’t hear much from me, I’m trying to mend and thankfully I’m not worrying about vampires like my friend Julia! :o) if you’re curious to what I’m talking about check out her blog.

http://juliarachelbarrett.net/